Moving to the Mountains

They say moving houses or going through big life changes is the easiest way to begin or break habits. Well, I’ve moved 3 times this year (for my husband’s job training) and each time I said I would not drink in the new house. And I failed.

But this move is permanent. Finally! We are in a new state, in a little mountain town. We bought a house and this is where my son will grow up and go to school. I’m on day 5 and I will not let this house become associated with drinking.

I noticed tonight I didn’t have that moment of “Should I make an excuse to go get wine??” I never had a night when that didn’t happen in our last house. That last house was bad. Very bad. It was small and cluttered, extremely boring, and I was very depressed.

I’m so happy to start this new chapter. No more hangovers. No more shame. No more nightly fights with myself about whether to drink or not. No more exhaustion. No more self hate.

I’ve been trying for 2+ years to quit drinking. The furthest I have gotten was 10 or 11 days. I even spent over $500 on some online program by a popular soberiety author/blogger/podcaster/etc. (It was not too helpful.)  But this time is different. I feel prepared. I am deeply dedicated not to let myself associate this town and this house with alcohol. My new life is starting and I’m not going to screw it up!

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